My name is Felicia, and I admit that I have lived most of my adult life denying myself a chance at a good, wholesome life because I lacked self-esteem and let fear, doubts and insecurities run every aspect of my life. I was confused, lost and in search of a life’s purpose. I blamed everyone else for my problems and often felt unappreciated.
To my mind, everyone, but myself, was responsible for my pain. I was the champion of self-sabotage. Everything that went wrong with what I did happen because I never paid a single positive thought or gave a single atom of positive energy to anything I did.
Living this kind of life caused me much pain. The more I hurt myself, the more resentful I became of my situation, the deeper I was sinking. My problem was so out of control that although I warned myself repeatedly to stop self-destructing, I could not stop myself. I wished someone would see I needed help, love and come to my rescue because that was my state of mind.
In time, my pain grew more robust; it became increasingly unbearable, disturbing and consuming. I knew I could no longer ignore the signs, so I reached deep within and resolved to stop my destructive behaviour in its tracks.
In those moments of initial resolve, I was still in a terrible place of darkness, fighting relentlessly to break through the feelings of emptiness and confusion. Then, in a few moments of clarity, I experienced what pain, shame and self-destructive thoughts I had brought on myself. At the same time, I buried my old story, the false one, and embraced a new purpose, a new way of thinking, a new way of behaving and a new way of taking on life. A new Felicia was born, and she was here to stay. I liked her! I just had to figure out what she wanted to do and be.
It didn’t take long for me to discover what I wanted to do and when it did come, I experienced magic. It was like a revelation. I got an inspiring thought and decided to trust my intuition. It paid off in ways I never imagined would be possible. In those moments, I remember feeling more joy and bliss than I ever had my whole life, and I suddenly knew that everything was going to be fabulous. To have these moments of self-discovery, I took a moment to ask myself what I would love to be doing, and I decided to do just that.
I was ready for a change, and although I didn’t know what I would do exactly to get to my dream life, I saw myself make conscious decisions to do things differently. Every time I found myself having one of those old, useless and self-destructive thoughts, I broke the pattern by ignoring it and replacing it with positive self-talk and actions. I filled my life with joy and laughter and left no place for fear, anxiety or doubt. I knew I was far GREATER than any situation or circumstances I was facing. Merely shifting my perception by one degree changed my life irreversibly.
Opportunities that would not otherwise show up began falling into my lap. I started to manifest people, places, and things that would prepare me for my intended life. I was open to learning and teaching, and the more I got to learn, the more I got to teach. In mentoring, I was serving, and nothing came second to my emotions whenever I performed.
The old Buddhist proverb, “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.” It rang true for me, and then, there was no looking back. I enrolled to become a transformational life coach and a certified Life Mastery consultant.
During the time I spent learning, I discovered the opportunity to help people through speaking, teaching, coaching and mentoring. If you have ever been fortunate enough to feel a calling, you would know what I was feeling, and you would also know that I was flying through the process of becoming the best version of myself. I’ll never deny that I was scared at times; I never really knew how it would all work out for me; I leaped and learned to fly on the journey to the unknown.
Today, I’m living the dream. I wake up each day impassioned for the life I love. I wake up with the feeling of loving my life. I would not be where I am today if it were not for that fateful but victorious morning in which I decided to listen to the still small voice of intuition and take action on it.
We are far more than the physical bodies that we are. We are spiritual beings having a human experience, and if we thought about life more this way, we would stop punishing ourselves the way we do and start living the way we should. Our purpose in life is for no other reason than to live happily ever after, and as an expression of this universe, it’s our birthright to live the life we love.
“Don’t let circumstances, situations and conditions dictate the choices you make in life.”